Friday, May 28, 2010

North Carolina trip - Striving for the Best

North Carolina – Striving for the Best

When I was in North Carolina I was out of my element but still had my same hangups. Looking for friends and making good decisions were both very difficult especially considering old habits and anti-social behavior. In my need for friendship I made friends with the most available and friendly people I came across however these turned out not to be the most healthy people to have developed friendships with. That and also not realizing I was not committed to being in a new state, cut short my stay there by at least a week.

The Blue Ridge mountains are beautiful and fun to drive through. Daniel Boone state forest runs through there.

I was given a job down there, through the company I was working for with the temp' service, helping out in the office of an apartment community consisting of 9 buildings or so. I was doing general office work, showing apartments, making deposits, and answering the phones. This was a fun experience but like most things in life I wouldn't mind having a do-over.

I became friends with one of the landscapers who was extremely friendly at first but then began trying to take advantage of me occasionally by asking me for money and rides. I also made friends with another person who asked me to let him use the office phone and such when we were hanging out in my apartment, the model unit, where I was staying. This unit did not have a phone.

Self confidence issues kept me from searching for higher caliber friendships and I did not have my normal group of friends around in North Carolina to fall back on. This left me in an emotionally precarious situation. While I seem to be past it relatively unscathed I would say if there is a moral to this story one might be that we should always strive for the best and never settle for what is coming easiest at any point in time. And we should always try to remember to believe in ourselves and try to see the positive in life while being aware of, but not focusing on, the negative, except maybe to make it better.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Meeting People And Living Life - Over Thirty-five

Meeting People And Living Life - Over Thirty-five

It's not as easy as it used to be. Now that we've “found” ourselves and discovered and learned more of what we like and don't like it seems we are compatible with fewer and fewer people. Gone are the days of superficial beauty and no opinions to get in the way. In the mid-thirties people have developed their personalities more, experienced more, and had successes and setbacks further sculpting their personalities. Life is more complex. Yet emotions still have virility and strength.

What can we who have moved into our mid-thirties do to ease loneliness and meet new people? I guess stay close to the friends we already have and work from there. There are always the old standbys of taking classes, joining reading groups, and so on. Venture out on occasion to local taverns, but not so much that it interferes with your goals and motivation to get things done. Stay active. Exercise. Do what works best for you.

These are stressful times for a lot of people and change at this age can be very difficult since many people have achieved stability by this point which is expected of us in many ways by the tendencies of our society. I personally believe that societal norms should not hold and judge us. Let us not be bound by what the majority does. We are all unique and beautiful individuals. No matter where life takes us. Let's try to see beyond our differences and appreciate our uniqueness.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Monday, May 24, 2010

So Apart

So Apart

So apart, we live, cannot start, to give
Selfish dreams, we make, cannot give, but take
So apart

Keep track of every penny
Making sure they might be plenty
Please be sure they all keep spending
In this cycle never-ending

It's a battle. A competition.
Mass production. Inefficient.
Continually taking jobs away.
Yet leaving us in bonds to stay.

So apart, we live, cannot start, to give
Selfish dreams, we make, cannot give, but take
So apart.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Warm Sunday In May

Warm Sunday In May - A guitar solo with a mic'ed acoustic guitar ( 2 tracks ) and a mic'ed bass guitar.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Open Hearts Acoustic Solos


Acoustic guitar solo in the mood of beauty.


Society has no conscience
Some people call it freedom
Chaos would be a better word
Work inside on sunny days
Warm weather waste away
In a chair most of the day
In the evening time get away
The wind and the sky
The clouds go by
Summer's days are coming night

Lookie here it's almost noon
Guess I'll go and get lunch soon

Pedal powered cars. Music Corporation.

Open Hearts.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Rock and Roll Minor II

This is one of the previous takes from the other day when I put out Rock and Roll Minor. There is a lot of static at the end unfortunately. Might want to turn the volume down at that point.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Rockin Jam Next

Working with some new equipment. Learning as I go.

Saturday, May 1, 2010